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I, Alfred F. Jones, don't get it, I really don't. Despite being bullied all the time for her good grades and coke bottle glasses, ____ was always so pleasent, so upbeat.

She's the last person I would have expected to commit suicide.

Through their tears, her parents said that, in her suicide letter, the reason why she killed herself is because of the bullying she had to put up with every day she went to school. Those words made my blood run cold, because I was one of the bullies who pushed her to do that, the ring leader actually. From name calling to groping, she certainly got it all, though you could never tell it hurt her by that sappy smile she always had plastered to her face when she told people she was fine.

 That fact probably makes it even more disrespectful to stand before her grave as I do now. Rain started to fall, the drops sliding down my blond locks and hitting the grass below, but I hardly cared; the rain mixed quite well with my tears.

 Why didn't I tell her how beautiful she was, instead of calling her four eyes and ugly?

 Why did I make fun of the way she laughed, when I only wanted to hear it more and more?

 Why did I tell her to die, when I want nothing more than for her to live?

 Why didn't I tell ____ I loved her?

 God, I'm so stupid. To think I had the chance to hold her in my arms, and instead to chose to bring her down, to look cool in front of my so called friends. I glanced up at the sky, the rain continuing its steady fall, though it looked crimson red to me. Red with ____'s blood that stained my hands.

 It's all my fault, but it's too late to say I'm sorry. It's too late to realize how much I need her. "I'm sorry." I whispered, my voice cracking with emotion. "I'm so sorry, ___."

 The rain fell for a while that day, and my tears fell even longer.

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It makes me sad how many kids kill themselves over bullies, and so I wrote this. To all bullies reading this: please think twice about bullying someone, because you just might prevent a death.
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:iconawesome-pancakes:
T_T So sad and touching.... CUDOS TO YOU BRO!!!!!


Hm.. I hope I spelled cudos right.... And used it in the right context.... Hm..
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:iconlaylaalvedo:
That's what Hero from Superchick is all about.
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=MrsKyoya Feb 13, 2013  Student General Artist
Did I ever tell you how much I love this? cause I do, so much~ It is so sad and beautifully written it made me cry :iconsniffplz: You are so amazing and I hope you know that :tighthug:
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~angelneko1 Feb 13, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
this is a reply to kittykat102 and MidnightShadows24. i have read your response to to this story and it breaks my heart to read that you both were bullied and thought about commiting suicde. you both are wonderful people, i can tell from your writing, and it would be a damn shame if you both died. although i have never been bullied, i have thought about suicide when my father was in the hospital and when my parents yell and scream at me for grades. every time that i have thought about death, i called my mother and my friend. although you may not have friends at your school or country you have wonderful friends on this site. this site is not only a place where you can put up artwork and literature, but a chance to meet new people and become friends with them. there are people here who love you and truly care for you. i am one of them. if you ever feel down you can go to my page and rant all of your troubles and i will listen to youcries. oneday in life you will find someone who will love you for who you are. this person will truely love you for all that you are, including all of your weakness. this person will take your weakness and turn it into your greatest strenght. i leave you with this song.

Beautiful Ones- Poets of the Fall
Flies with a broken wing, she's ever so graceful, so like an angel,
but I see, tears flow quietly.

The struggle she's seen this spring, when nothing comes dancing,
paying a handsome fee, and still she smiles at me.

And I can't take it, no I can't help but wonder...

Why do we sacrifice the beautiful ones?
How do you break a heart of gold?
Why do we sacrifice our beautiful souls?
Heroes of tales unsung, untold.

Sweet as an angel sings, she gives though she has none left but the
last one, free, unhesitatingly.

And I am humbled, I'm a broken mirror, and I can't help but wonder...

Why do we sacrifice the beautiful ones?
How do you break a heart of gold?
Why do we sacrifice our beautiful souls?
Heroes of tales unsung, untold.

Why do we sacrifice the beautiful ones?
Why when they walk with love alone?
Why do we sacrifice our beautiful souls?
Just trying to find their way home.

you are beautiful.
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:iconicey-angel:
ahhhh TT^TT
so sad!!
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Mood: Sorrow !kittykat102 Jan 25, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
WARNING. WALL OF TEXT AHEAD.

Damn... this was... simply HEARTBREAKING. TTATT I feel the need to change this story... D: To make it have a happy ending... but I know it's useless. Some things are just impossible to change. I'd seriously do anything to stop those who think of suicide or at least lessen their pain. D': I was bullied my first few years in my country for being a "gringo"(offensive latin-american slang for american or englishman), even though I was just raised outside my country, and that doesn't make me a foreigner... ;A; but that's the excuse those bullies used, that I was a good-for-nothing gringo and was better off dead. >.> and it was a really sad episode of my life, I didn't smile at all and actually thought of suicide a few times... I was never the same after that, even nowadays I find it hard to smile, and if someone approaches me I back off scared they'll hurt me... I also became rather paranoic, if I get a friend I tend to be wary of them thinking they're plotting something behind my back, and besides that I'm always really melancholic. I used to be the popular type, who talked to everyone, was friends with everyone, etc. I can hardly utter a word now, and even though I'm not bullied anymore I don't have any friends because I don't talk to anyone. I just wish those biatches who stole my old life away would GIVE IT BACK. Seriously, I love my country but I can't help but blame it for all the bad things that happened in my life. I wanna go back to my old country, my beloved country, where only happy things happened to me but no one seems to understand that, not even my parents. My own parents think I'm a weirdo for loving the country we used to live in as much as or even more than the country where I suffered abuse. Hell yeah. The fact that they bullied me for being a "foreigner" actually makes me want to tell everyone I meet: "I'm a foreigner". It's technically a lie, yes, but can't a girl be rebellious?

Sorry for the wall of text/rant, I was a bit moody today thinking about the past and I just had to let it all out. GOD, was that long... :iconsweatdropplz:
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~MidnightShadows24 Jan 26, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I feel for you, sweetheart. I was bullied as well, for a reason even more ridiculous. My school doesn't treat "freaks" such as myself too kindly. It hurt so much to have so many of my friends leave me, because they were scared of being seen with a freak such as myself. I also considered suicide, but I never had the guts to go through with it. Sometimes, even now, I think about killing myself. But I can't seem to find the courage to cut anywhere but my thighs. :( If I could slit my wrists and end it, I think sometimes I'd be happier.

And it's alright, I understand how it feels to want to let it all out. No need to apologize, love. :hug:
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I'm touched, this is a wonderbar piece!
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~SakuraLover01 Jan 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for writing this.
I've read some of the comments below. I'm a victim of bullying, and knowing other people out there has been through the same as me, but instead of dwelling on it for years like I've done, and instead moved on, warms my heart. I hope you have it much better now.

I have never been able to move on, at least not fully. It's been 3 years since people daily bullied me, but I still feel haunted by their words and actions. The other day a guy made a comment about how much he disliked the way I acted and dressed up, and right then and there I was angry and yelled at him, but when I came home I started crying, and I cried until I fell asleep.
I made a counterpart to deal with problems. Since my real name is Hanne, she likes to call herself Enna. She is tough, and she protects me, but she will only do that, she won't comfort me. That's why I cry.
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Reading this made me remember everything I've been through, and while reading I was actually crying. But at the same time I was happy, cause I realized how far I've come since then. I've gotten so many more friends since then and my life is much better.

I'm sorry, I'm just ranting on about myself, but I really like this. I hope you got it better too :heart:
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Mood: Joy ~xXXStars-and-Flowers Jan 12, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This is such a nice and meaningful story even if it was short. I love how you made the story sad but sweet at the same time when Alfred wanted to tell the reader he loved her! ^_^
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