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I, Alfred F. Jones, don't get it, I really don't. Despite being bullied all the time for her good grades and coke bottle glasses, ____ was always so pleasent, so upbeat.

She's the last person I would have expected to commit suicide.

Through their tears, her parents said that, in her suicide letter, the reason why she killed herself is because of the bullying she had to put up with every day she went to school. Those words made my blood run cold, because I was one of the bullies who pushed her to do that, the ring leader actually. From name calling to groping, she certainly got it all, though you could never tell it hurt her by that sappy smile she always had plastered to her face when she told people she was fine.

 That fact probably makes it even more disrespectful to stand before her grave as I do now. Rain started to fall, the drops sliding down my blond locks and hitting the grass below, but I hardly cared; the rain mixed quite well with my tears.

 Why didn't I tell her how beautiful she was, instead of calling her four eyes and ugly?

 Why did I make fun of the way she laughed, when I only wanted to hear it more and more?

 Why did I tell her to die, when I want nothing more than for her to live?

 Why didn't I tell ____ I loved her?

 God, I'm so stupid. To think I had the chance to hold her in my arms, and instead to chose to bring her down, to look cool in front of my so called friends. I glanced up at the sky, the rain continuing its steady fall, though it looked crimson red to me. Red with ____'s blood that stained my hands.

 It's all my fault, but it's too late to say I'm sorry. It's too late to realize how much I need her. "I'm sorry." I whispered, my voice cracking with emotion. "I'm so sorry, ___."

 The rain fell for a while that day, and my tears fell even longer.

It makes me sad how many kids kill themselves over bullies, and so I wrote this. To all bullies reading this: please think twice about bullying someone, because you just might prevent a death.
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sis554 Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
As of now 5 tears have left my eyes with more to come
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THESE FEELS BRO T_T
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Yuikawa28 Featured By Owner Mar 20, 2014
This is really amazing and I was bullied everyday at school without me trying to kill the hell out of them but when I had enough, I tried killing myself but my family guards me the entire hour that I had no chance. My friends befriended me because of my grades so they are 'fakes' so all I have left to live for is my career and my family.
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Isabellathekiller16 Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014
That's sad but don't kill yourself you have a life to live for
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lunabun Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2013  Student Writer
I cried. This really hit me hard, because honestly, I have tried to kill myself, multiple times. Part of me still wants to, but the other part, that small little part of me, urges me to live because I have someone to live for.
I tried it a lot, a good chunk of my tries would have been successful if my grandmother or mother hadn't come home at the time they did.
Now, I'm actually glad I'm alive. I'm glad I'm alive because today, I'm living, to see that smile, on my best friend's face, to hear her laugh and talk, it's enough for me to live.

All I can say, from my experiences, is, that it does get better, always. There is always a reason to live, even if it feels like there isn't, you just need to look for it.
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kurino-sama-alpha Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2014
thank you for not killing yourself!!!! i wish i knew who you actually were and where you lived, because if you live close to me, then i would give you a giant hug for being strong enough to push on and keep going!!!! there is always a reason to live, and i'm so sorry you got bullied!!! i know how it feels, but it probably was nowhere near as bad as you. but i'm so glad you're her today!!!! *hugs tightly* i'm so proud of you.
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CrystalBarrier Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2013
Sh!t I'm crying now!
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Dj-Vaporeon Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
... I am bullied every day to no end at school and I have tried to kill my self before... :iconsadplz:
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kurino-sama-alpha Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2014
be strong and push on! i know how much it can really hurt. but it does get better, trust me. i believe in you to be stronger than your bullies and not give into them!! *hugs tightly* you can get through this. i believe in you!!!
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KallyJean96 Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2013
Be strong, sweetheart, you'll be okay.
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